Friday, November 16, 2018
As the thanksgiving holiday approaches and I look at being thankful, I definitely have a lot to be thankful for in my life. If I look at the last year, I am having a hard time convincing myself I should "be thankful". As a grieving mom who lost a huge part of her heart, I often think being thankful just isn't right. I cant be thankful, I shouldn't be thankful. How can I be thankful this thanksgiving with a broken heart and half empty arms?
But I am. I am thankful for each and every one of you. As I have had the most difficult time getting thank yous cards out, there are special items and gifts around my house that remind me of my sweet angel, but also remind me that right now, this thanksgiving holiday, I am thankful for "MY VILLAGE". For every single one of YOU.
This last year, myself as well as my family, have been blown away by the amount of support and love that has been blasted our way. Whether that be a simple card saying hello or through the extremely generous donations, your thoughtfulness and generosity is astounding. From beautiful photography to blankets, handcrafted jewelry to paintings, wind chimes and garden art, cards and everything giraffe. From open arms and kleenex boxes,warm delicious meals, a listening ear or a hot cup of coffee, to phone calls and text messages. We are so grateful and blessed by your kindheartedness.
Most importantly, I want to thank you for reading this. I have been humbled by how many of you follow and read my blog. It has been a HUGE part of my grieving journey. It has been a place where I can go to be vulnerable and raw about my thoughts and feelings. And I appreciate your patience and support as I do that, because sometimes its really really hard. As time and feelings allow, I am hoping the posts will come more often. But keep checking in as I know many of you do!
I believe people walk in and out of our lives for a reason. So many of you have walked in the last year and have left huge footprints that will never be forgotten. For those of you who have been here from the beginning, our bonds only grow stronger. Our little Brecken angel will never be forgotten and is SO loved. It often brings me comfort knowing that when you see that little giraffe staring at you in the window, you tell me you think of Brecken. And that is just what I want to happen.
So this Thanksgiving be thankful. Thankful for those close to you. For those of you who keep me going, keep me up, and keep me moving. It might be minute by minute but I am thankful. I love you all.